Tuesday, 29 May 2012

hey, how are you?

last night, I'm dreaming about you. in my dream, i just hugged you, my eyes were closed, and i cried really hard. I missed you? in the fact, yes .. every day.
it was almost 6 years since you passed away
I have no words to express my longing for you.

I still remember, when the news of your death, i have received. when it was five o'clock in the morning, my mother knocked on my door and my sister opened the door for her, she just said "your grandfather passed away" I just shut up, do not cry at all. I froze in my bed. after i got to your house, i cried very hard, from there i realized that you really left me.

I still remember, a few days before you died, i had to come to your house, and i know you're sick of high fever. I hold your forehead to make sure that you are okay.

and I remember, a few days before you died, my grandmother told me that you had told her about me .. "sasa is my grandchild who loves me the most. she had been holding my forehead"

-17 Juni 2006, i can't explain my feelings on that day

allah, I want his presence in my dreams, again ..
and if i had a chance to meet him, i would use to hug him until the time runs out ..

hey, my grandfather .. Heaven is very beautiful, isn’t it? :)


Wednesday, 9 May 2012

Spoiled Child :)

My mama told me "don't be spoiled, you have no need to be fed at dinner time" I know i'm a very spoiled child, but i was already almost 21 years. and i'm very spoiled to my father. they weren't treating me like a 21-year-old girl, but I really liked it. maybe I'm still treated like a child aged 7 years :)) mama and papa, I love you very much, and I want to be spoiled by you forever :) if one of you left me, I'll come with you.


Saturday, 5 May 2012

New Blog

Please visit my other blog..
but.. ooppss! sorry guys, its all about SuperJunior and Kpop world ehehehehe

FREE AND INDEPENDENT still about my life..


thanks :)