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a love letter for lee sungmin (ignore my brainless side)

idk why but i guess i should write this, about my feeling. this is such a burden, i swear to god.

lee sungmin, he is an idol. he is rich, famous, has a lot of fans, musical actor, singer, dancer, actor. 29 years old man. i'm telling you, he is not that handsome, he is fat and short. but his cuteness really driving me insane. he is not a humble idol like choi siwon or lee donghae. but i love him the most, like seriously my every moment with him is so beautiful. when he was standing in front of me, i couldn't take a pict, i just want to see him as much as i can while hugging my lightstick and smiled for no reason. i mumbled "thankyou god i could see him this close". some people told me that i am completely crazy. and i know that was true. i shouldn't have given my heart to you, to a stranger like you. this is not the feeling between a fangirl and her idol. i love him for real. how can i felt sad when i saw him wearing a necklace with a ring on it? nonsense! or when sj members are taking their holiday, watching SNSD's concert, watching henry's debut stage, came to sukira (radio), came to the cafe, rest for a whole day in the dorm, meanwhile sungmin is doing his musical everyday in japan. everyday. he has no time for rest. he must be so tired :( i'm sad. why are you taking musical contract when you have to do superjunior world tour too? do not push your self too hard please. i should not idolized someone this much. but already stucked! my life is ruined bcs of superjunior, bcs of lee sungmin. of course i love another boygroup but no one can replace superjunior. they are my priority in my kpop hell. sungmin oppa, i love you to the moon and back. rest and eat well please, you are not a robot, you need a rest bcs i have to meet you in your best condition, okay? ah one thing, will you go to the army next year? i don't know how to spend 2 years without you :( i will meet you again before those fucking army, right? hehehehehe. i will stop loving you when an apple fruit grows on mango tree. that is a promise. i miss you so much.

look! i have 4 superjunior lightsticks. 2 of them have sungmin name on it (성민 = sungmin)

love of my life hehehehehehe

shasa