Beautiful In White

Not sure if you know this
But when we first met  
I got so nervous 
I couldn't speak  
In that very moment  
I found the one and  
My life had found its missing piece
So as long as I live I'll love you  
Will have and hold you  
You look so beautiful in white  
And from now to my very last breath
This day I'll cherish  
You look so beautiful in white Tonight
What we have is timeless  
My love is endless  
And with this ring I Say to the world  
You're my every reason you're all that I believe in  
With all my heart I mean every world

oooh oh You look so beautiful in white
So beautiful in white Tonight

And if a daughters what our future holds  
I hope she has your eyes  
Finds love like you and I did Yeah, 
I wish she falls in love and I will let her go
I'll walk her down the aisle  
She'll look so beautiful in white
You look so beautiful in white

-Shane Filan

shasa

The Vow

-I chose to stay with him for all the things he's done right; not the one thing he's done wrong. I chose to forgive him

-I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they are not, to agree to disagree about red velvet cake, to live within the warmth of your heart, and always call it home

-Life's all about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever. But what if one day you could no longer remember any of them?

-I vow to love you and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other

-Come home with me. We’ll figure this out together

-But how do you look at the girl you love, and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?

shasa

Don't Say Goodbye

Davichi-Dont Say Goodbye

touched..

shasa

Hate x Love

i dont like studying

i love dancing, reading, hang out, dancing, sleeping, joke, dancing, dreaming, hugging, kissing, dancing..

the conclusions .. i love dancing more than studying

 shasa

THE_STORY

sekarang aku mau cerita tentang pentas jazz balletku kemarin tanggal 17desember2011 di Taman Ismail Marzuki. pentasnya berjudul the story, cerita ttg seorang anak perempuan yang berusaha keras untuk mewujudkan cita2nya membangun sekolah tari tetapi ibunya menentang untuk menari. disini aku jadi anak graduation saat anak2 sekolah tari angkatan pertama tersebut lulus. rasanya seneng jalanin pentas ini, walaupun capek karna banyak tugas kuliah juga, tapi untuk the story ini kita udah latihan sejak kurang lebih bulan agustus, jadi kira2 4bulanan kita latihan untuk tampil di 17desember.. alhamdulillah semua berjalan lancar. seneng juga pada nonton, ada sahabat2ku yaitu dede ipang ketek bolang, tapi sedih sih karena bella detya didi dan bramen ga bisa dateng untuk nonton aku dan ona :( kakakku dan pacar nya juga dateng. pertunjukan dimulai jam 2 dan selesai jam 4, tapi jam 7 kita nari lg di hall teater jakarta, walapun cuma nari flashmob aja tapi seruuuu sekali. sedih pentasnya udah selesai, kayak ga berasa semua nya selesai, kayaknya waktu itu masih harus latihan2 sabtu dan minggu, sekarang semuanya hilang.. malah jadi kayak hampa.pingin pentas lagi rasanya, semoga pentas tahun depan bisa lebih baik dari tahun ini dan udah naik kelas, amin amin amiiiin..

berikut foto-fotonya, tapi ga ada foto pas perform karena pentas namarina tidak diperbolehkan ngambil foto atau merekam, tapi tenaaaang nanti ada dvd nya kok :)

ID CARD

get ready

with raya vindya

the dancers

my best, my dancer.. yoehana.. (kiri : kostum the story, kanan : kostum flashmob)

hey love :*

but .. he is not coming. a person who is included in the list "people who i expect to come" but that's okay :) I know we have a different way, and I know that he supported me.. 

shasa 

RIGHT NOW

this time .. I don't want anything, do anything, think anything, anything .. you hear? anything! I'll continue to re-word it, until there is no meaning anymore. I live in a crazy world, huh? the world who don't understand the meaning of toil, love, friendship, or just me who can't understand all that? or may not want to understand .. don't want to ..

except dancing, that's all I want now .. I dance not only with my body, but with my soul, heart and mind .. which can clear all the disgusting things that I'm dealing with. To give me more spirit, to face my world that was shattered. my body looks great, although the inside has been damaged and destroyed. there will be no one could guess what was happening to me ..

 

so, I need to dance .. bismillahirrahmanirahim, I pray for my performances this year, I hope this will be very beautiful, for me, for others, for other dancers, to my family, and my friends..

sasha

should i?

my day..
day by day.. seems like its more complicated. i dont have time to eat, to sleep, to hangout. like... there is a big hole in my heart. i really really tired of this situation. i need more time in a day, to resolve all matters.
when im tired, thats not me, thats my body, it feels like to be collapse. but i really cant tell anyone about my problem, about my feelings. its funny, some of my friends, crying and telling me about their problem, almost every time. I'm happy to listen, and I give them advice, without them knowing what I'm experiencing. maybe, my problem is more severe and complicated, but i dont know why, i cant tell anybody, even my bestfriends. i have many stories that i cant even tell my bestfriends. why? i dont know. why cant I share a story? I became very closed.
should i through this? will i be strong enough? 
I look strong from outside, such as not having problems, like feeling happy all the time. But I was very fragile in the inside..

 sasha

...

my life was never heavy like this before. too much pain, too many thoughts, too many activities, its make me sick. there is no weekend, there is no holiday. thats all about practice, college, practice, college, and so on like that. my brain is full of many thoughts, love... friends... FED UP! the lowest point in my life.
sometimes, there is no one else look inside my self, my world begins to fall.
heartache, sprain, fell down, tired, sweat, dizziness, those who fill my days, ALMOST EVERYDAY!
my heart feels as if it is being crushed under a heavy weight, my tears drop by drop, they are falling against my chest, cant you see my tired body? sometimes i really want to complain.
but.... I do this all for the best, for my performance, for my scores, for the people who supported me..
please god, give me a strength and patience to get through this.

and you... i need you, really need you. no one understands me, like the way you understood me when im tired .. i need your help, to calm me down..

shasa