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my life was never heavy like this before. too much pain, too many thoughts, too many activities, its make me sick. there is no weekend, there is no holiday. thats all about practice, college, practice, college, and so on like that. my brain is full of many thoughts, love... friends... FED UP! the lowest point in my life.
sometimes, there is no one else look inside my self, my world begins to fall.
heartache, sprain, fell down, tired, sweat, dizziness, those who fill my days, ALMOST EVERYDAY!
my heart feels as if it is being crushed under a heavy weight, my tears drop by drop, they are falling against my chest, cant you see my tired body? sometimes i really want to complain.
but.... I do this all for the best, for my performance, for my scores, for the people who supported me..
please god, give me a strength and patience to get through this.

and you... i need you, really need you. no one understands me, like the way you understood me when im tired .. i need your help, to calm me down..

shasa