should i?

my day..
day by day.. seems like its more complicated. i dont have time to eat, to sleep, to hangout. like... there is a big hole in my heart. i really really tired of this situation. i need more time in a day, to resolve all matters.
when im tired, thats not me, thats my body, it feels like to be collapse. but i really cant tell anyone about my problem, about my feelings. its funny, some of my friends, crying and telling me about their problem, almost every time. I'm happy to listen, and I give them advice, without them knowing what I'm experiencing. maybe, my problem is more severe and complicated, but i dont know why, i cant tell anybody, even my bestfriends. i have many stories that i cant even tell my bestfriends. why? i dont know. why cant I share a story? I became very closed.
should i through this? will i be strong enough? 
I look strong from outside, such as not having problems, like feeling happy all the time. But I was very fragile in the inside..

 sasha

...

my life was never heavy like this before. too much pain, too many thoughts, too many activities, its make me sick. there is no weekend, there is no holiday. thats all about practice, college, practice, college, and so on like that. my brain is full of many thoughts, love... friends... FED UP! the lowest point in my life.
sometimes, there is no one else look inside my self, my world begins to fall.
heartache, sprain, fell down, tired, sweat, dizziness, those who fill my days, ALMOST EVERYDAY!
my heart feels as if it is being crushed under a heavy weight, my tears drop by drop, they are falling against my chest, cant you see my tired body? sometimes i really want to complain.
but.... I do this all for the best, for my performance, for my scores, for the people who supported me..
please god, give me a strength and patience to get through this.

and you... i need you, really need you. no one understands me, like the way you understood me when im tired .. i need your help, to calm me down..

shasa

baraka allahu lakuma-maher zain

We’re here on this special day
Our hearts are full of pleasure
A day that brings the two of you
Close together
We’re gathered here to celebrate
A moment you’ll always treasure
We ask Allah to make your love
Last forever

Let’s raise our hands and make Du’a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let’s all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
Baraka Allahu Lakuma wa Baraka alikuma
Wa jamaah baina kuma fee khair.
Barakallah hu lakuma wa baraka alikuma
Wa jamaah baina kuma fii khair.

From now you’ll share all your chores
Through heart-ship to support each other
Together worshipping Allah
Seeking His pleasure

We pray that He will fill your life
With happiness and blessings
And grants your kids who make your home
Filled with laughter

Let’s raise our hands and make Dua
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let’s all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
Baraka Allahu Lakuma wa Baraka alikuma
Wa jamaah baina kuma fee khair.
Barakallah hu lakuma wa baraka alikuma
Wa jamaah baina kuma fii khair.

بارك الله
بارك الله لكم ولنا

الله بارك لهما
الله أدم حبهما
الله صلّي وسلّم على رسول الله

الله تب علينا
الله ارض عنا
الله اهد خطانا
على سنة نبينا

Let’s raise our hands and make Du’a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let’s all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
Barakallahu Lakuma wa Baraka alikuma

satu lagu lagi yang harus ada di pernikahanku :)

shasa

quotes

dont send a man to do a woman's job! -gisele yashar


shasa

from this moment

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on


one song that must exist in the playlist on my wedding!

shasa

rainbow roses

The spectacular flowers are produced in the Netherlands after the trial for years.
-terselubung

oh maaaaaaaaaan, very gorgeous...
how beautiful these flowers

shasa

goodnight and go

Why do you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you..
Must you make me laugh so much?

Goodnight And Go Lyrics
Imogen Heap
:) :) :)

shasa

eva's birthday

happy birthday maria eva angelica :) me love youuuuu

shasa